Life Changes

Life is such a rollercoaster ride. It can be moving along and be so simple and straight forward and the next thing you know you find everything upside down and a complete shambles. We have our high points that we never want to end and then in a blink of an eye, a nightmare that we want to end before it even begins. But with all this we have the 'angels' in our lives that help us sort through the bad times. Sometimes these angels become such a part of your life that for them not to be there seems unimaginable. Such a case happened to me.

I met my 'angel' a few years ago and we became fast friends. I met her through a karaoke site. She was so very sweet and kind to me right from the start. I thought to myself back then that if ever I was to fall in love again I would hope that it would be with someone like her. Caring, thoughtful and loving as she was, how was I to know what lie ahead in the future.

As time rolled on, there were times when we would loose track of one another.. get caught up in other things and then we would find each other again. And this did happen a few times. Then last year, in December, my mother had to have some surgery done. According to doctors, things went well so no one expected what was to happen later that month.The hospital staff cared for her and looked after her well but complications did arise and the unthinkable did happen. On Christmas day, at approx. 6:50am my mother passed away from health problems that could not be remedied.

During the time of her hospitalization and her passing, my constant companion and confidant was my 'angel', Caroline. She let me talk about how I was feeling and she would listen and give me the cheer up I needed. She helped me most after my mom had passed, with listening. Not saying much but listening. I could tell she too was hurting as she did want to meet my mom. She said often that she sounded like a strong woman to have endured what she had, and that she was.

The more we talked, the closer we became. As life had changed for me with mom's passing it was changing again, I was falling in love with this 'angel'.. my Caroline. I had never met Caroline but the love I felt from her and the love was feeling for her was so real. We continued talking and falling in love. We talked about getting together, to meet and spend some time together. Find out if this love we both were feeling was a true and honest feeling that we felt for each other.

We finally did meet in June of this year and the love we had for one another was there. We talked, we walked and traveled to different places. We experienced many things when she was here but the one thing that did happen was our love was substantiated. Our love was not something imagined but something real and true. While she was here I tried to make sure that she did not have to do anything. I cooked for her, did my best at it anyways. But, even though I wanted her time here to be the best she still cooked some here and baked cookies for my father and I. As for my dad, he thinks she is the best.. and that she is. It was a magical time here while she remained but as with all good things, she did have to go back as her holidays were ending. When she left, though we said no tears, we both did but not in front of each other.

We are in constant communication either by text, voicing on yahoo or talking on the phone. My heart yearns for her return to me. She has made plans to return to me again soon.. and then again after my birthday so I am anticipating her return to my arms and my lips touching hers again.

Life does give us choices in life. The hope we all have is to make the correct choice. The choice that leads us to a job we love, friends we care about and a love that was written in the stars. Through my choices, I have learned much about myself and have found that love that was written in the stars. I do so very much love you Caroline... always and forever and forever and a day. <3<3<3>